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Thursday, August 24

It isn't easy.

It is not easy to able to manage relationships of all kinds.
It is not easy to please everyone.
It is not easy to say goodbye to something, someone.
It is not easy to be truthful.
It is not easy to hide things.
It is not easy to pretend nothing has happened.
It is not easy to hear somethings sometimes.
It is not easy to be super.
It is not easy to a good person.
It is not easy to be just an ordinary person.

I'm trying to be all of these.. i will try.

Heli Dont ask me why 11:49 PM

Friday, August 18

Kan Tou Le Ma?

Sometimes certain things in life happened and there's nothing wrong in it happening, but i just don't know why i can't comprehend it. Maybe we are taught in a way, or i was used to thinking the complex way that well.. maybe things are simple.

this thing about death, sometimes i feel as if in chinese we say, "kan tou le." and wonder is it really true. 2 deaths in 3 months.. although i don't know them at all.. well, kind of hit me in just some ways. you ask me why, mmm well maybe because i've prayed for these people before.. and probably that's where the small link sprouted out from. But anyway, not being closed to them but knowing that they are in a better place now, a so much better place... i guess it's altogether not that bad. relieved from this earthly place and all that work, stress, pain and what not. I look at myself, at my age.. haven't even reach the halfmark, hah..way to go for me.

actually i think i feel more sad for those that are alive and are feeling sad for these people who has gone ahead of them. it just dawned upon me that it's just going to be a period of time for them to rough it out before they can go forth again. i've sensed a few kinds of loss before too, both unexpected and expected.. and i wonder which is worse. Also been one who's directly involved and one that isn't directly involved. Well so in a way, i've seen much in this aspect i guess. Some people think that you know, probably you've seen much, you're ready to say goodbye to anyone, having to deal with similar situations so many times.. but not me. There's this numb feeling i developed at times but still, when it hits you, you're hit.

alright you may ignored if all these doesn't make sense.
as usual, my ramblings.
don't bother.

Heli Dont ask me why 9:58 PM

Tuesday, August 15

2nd Day of School

Wallala.. nothing much to say bout school lah. think give me one more week and maybe i will start complaining oops. actually i'm here to talk about the pics in my blog! haha. on your left hand side you know those pics in red and white one - yah took them at national stadium during the national day parade! wahaha jealous ba that i went. thank God i've got a chance to go, thanks to yixin haha. that's my 2nd time to a national day parade other than the one we went when we were pri5. i'm still fascinated by the contingents and GOH coming in, march pass and all that. But this year, i especially like the fireworks! all behind me eh! haha.. just peww peww peww out in the sky. marvelous!

Oh anyway yah the pics.. got some took recently too at sentosa! went for the sentosa luge ride and cooool! will be even more shiok if the path is longer. but anyway altogether had loads of fun with the gang lah. so funny when weilin jammed at the turn at the first part. LOL.

and errmmm yup other pics were last time de. just put them up lah hah.

yadayada anyway i'm at yixin's bunk now waiting for her soccer to be over.. lalalala. see you all!

Heli Dont ask me why 8:30 PM

Monday, August 14

Finally new SKIN!

hoho finally got myself a new skin for this blog.
Can't see the pics properly but never mind la haha.
i'm happy with it can le!

School starting tmr. New beginning, new things to come.
I guess tonight ended well quite alright for me. Hah.

Happy birthday Mag and Yuting!! =*D

Heli Dont ask me why 12:33 AM

Thursday, August 10

Semester 1

EC 1101E - Introduction to Economic Analysis
LSM 1301 - General Biology
GE 1101E - Place, Environmental and Society
GE 2219 - Climate, Water and Environment
SSA 2211 - The Evolution of a Global City-State

For now, a 4 day week for me. School starts next week. Urghh.

Heli Dont ask me why 11:34 PM

Saturday, August 5

It's been a month.

Bidded for modules last thursday and friday hah. Thought the numbers would fluctuate here and there de but hah, nothing much exciting. Just that kinda stunned when one of vacany for my module shows 5 only. Mmm.. got myself 3 modules le - 2 geog and 1 econs. Yup.. next bidding on monday. Then yah.. by then would know how's my timetable like for the semester le.

But i thought the planning of my modules was quite killing. almost went crazy with the rest at lai's house. And poor weilin, felt that she couldn't breathe at the thought of bidding. haha.. relax dearies!

Oh had my teaching scholarship presentatino ceremony yesterday too hah. Yup it was a nice feeling back on stage receiving something again, it's been a while. Anyway i thought Mr Tharman was quite cham, having to shake about 300+ hands that day. Hah..

Hmmm my father attended the ceremony as well but the way he left me that day, felt kinda pushed away and i don't know why too. Anyway haven't feel comfortable at home, and going home for the past few months. Ha.. keep me in prayers ba.

On a lighter note.. I've changed my hairstyle! haha.. and highlighted my hair too! Thanks to yt for bringing me to that far east saloon.. ok lah spent quite a bit on it, but yup i guess it's worth it! =D

Hah can't see the colour on my hair right? hah.. booked me lah. then you can see me face to face. =P

Heli Dont ask me why 10:03 PM

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